Some some of you might not know this (or believe it) but I honestly had never really used or went on youtube before a couple of months ago....I knew it existed and I had heard there were videos on it but had never actually typed the site into my browser and just browsed....
well and then I did..
and lost DAYS of my life.
Seriously Days.
After following different tracks I found this video:
I put it up on facebook for a hot minute but then took it down...when I thought about it this video is kind of creepy and I couldn't put into words why I liked it sooo much. Honestly its kind of creepy...the person should be focusing on the kids...and it is not her best dancing and I don't have this weird obsession with her..
after mulling it over though I realized its because she is living her PASSION. She doesn't give a shit about the press, or her image, or really anyone but she is in the moment. living her mission. She is focused on the kids, their joy. She is soaking up the energy and recharging.
Replace her with anyone.
From Nanny to First Lady to Comedian.
When people live their passion it shows. It shows in their face. It shows in their walk, their energy, their everything.
Shit happens but when you are living a life of your ideals, your talents, it is always worth it. The goal is so much bigger than the pain. It is not the easy road, or even the smartest route sometimes but its the road that just feels right. That allows you to go to bed exhausted but at ease.
Closure
I wish that this "last death" brought back all those lost from this horrible war & 9/11...that all those who lost loved ones, or had loved ones fight for this cause would get them back. Sadly I feel that more death, more killing will just equal the same response.
When will we be the example?
When will we stop all of this and show love? peace?
While I hope this brings closure to many I fear that it will be an empty closure. It will not bring back your loved ones, or erase the pain you feel from their absence. It will not undo that horrible event that took place 10 years ago. Instead this quest has led thousands more to feel that pain, to want/to seek revenge.
While I pray this really does end up to be a good thing I think it is unreasonable for the US to ask other countries and organizations for something we are not willing to give.
Another senseless death..how many others died in that gun fight? How many mothers are at home crying over their dead children?
With Bin Laden gone this just leaves room for another in his place. Do you think the view that the people he led has changed of us? Do you actually believe they are now afraid? They who have been trained from childhood to fight, have been taught honor and sacrifice, they who have had all odds against them from day one and yet still have nothing to loose? Do you think they have now changed their opinions of the US for the positive? That we will now be safe?
If you think any of that you are a fool.
I am tired of false promises and of people losing their lives over false information and hatred.
I am tired of 10 years wasted. Wasted on war, on hatred on a false promise of closure. of safety.
I wish tonight I could celebrate closure. I wish tonight I could celebrate our great achievement.
But tonight I pray.
Tonight I pray for healing, for peace. For the US to take a stand and state we will not only ask for Peace but also give it.
10 years, trillions of dollars, thousands and thousands of lives for one elderly man's death. Seems so pointless. Could you imagine if all that effort went into education? into bettering the world? Think of how much truly safer, rewarding this moment would be then. To create relationships based on respect and understanding, of openness and diversity.
Tonight I pray for peace.
When will we be the example?
When will we stop all of this and show love? peace?
While I hope this brings closure to many I fear that it will be an empty closure. It will not bring back your loved ones, or erase the pain you feel from their absence. It will not undo that horrible event that took place 10 years ago. Instead this quest has led thousands more to feel that pain, to want/to seek revenge.
While I pray this really does end up to be a good thing I think it is unreasonable for the US to ask other countries and organizations for something we are not willing to give.
Another senseless death..how many others died in that gun fight? How many mothers are at home crying over their dead children?
With Bin Laden gone this just leaves room for another in his place. Do you think the view that the people he led has changed of us? Do you actually believe they are now afraid? They who have been trained from childhood to fight, have been taught honor and sacrifice, they who have had all odds against them from day one and yet still have nothing to loose? Do you think they have now changed their opinions of the US for the positive? That we will now be safe?
If you think any of that you are a fool.
I am tired of false promises and of people losing their lives over false information and hatred.
I am tired of 10 years wasted. Wasted on war, on hatred on a false promise of closure. of safety.
I wish tonight I could celebrate closure. I wish tonight I could celebrate our great achievement.
But tonight I pray.
Tonight I pray for healing, for peace. For the US to take a stand and state we will not only ask for Peace but also give it.
10 years, trillions of dollars, thousands and thousands of lives for one elderly man's death. Seems so pointless. Could you imagine if all that effort went into education? into bettering the world? Think of how much truly safer, rewarding this moment would be then. To create relationships based on respect and understanding, of openness and diversity.
Tonight I pray for peace.
blah & friendship
Had an epic day yesterday though feel still full.....! While Easter is supposta be spent with your family B & I decided to-f-with tradition and just hosted something at our house. I love hosting things but constantly feel "pressure" to keep up with others and honestly that pressure usually stops me from having people over or turns me into a raving bitch when preparing for events. I will admit it: I am not a tidy person....seriously at any one time our house looks like a hot mess and I cannot understand how people can keep their houses neat. I covet others who let me into their homes when I stop by unannounced...knowing that this is one of my greatest fears because of dog hair, stray coke cans, and 10 pairs of shoes & sometimes socks laying in various parts of the house at any one time. I know its stupid and that none of my friends care, that this "standard" is again something society places on us females. Our worth measured by our housekeeping skills.
And while rationally I know it is total garbage the Idaho girl in me just can't shake that Betty Crocker image as the ideal....
So imagine how awesome it was to have loved ones over where we could laugh, break bread and whom I realized I loved enough to not worry about not completely wiped down cabinets or clean windows...it was fun to just be able to enjoy the moment.
To stop for a second and feel loved & laughter.
It is a feeling I carried over to today even though I am cramping and feel completely gross (I blame the 3 different pies and copious amounts of champagne...). I so quickly get into that competitive mode with other people from anything to body images, window treatments, even if my garden is planted, and if I planted enough & everything in between....I blame society and it constantly telling us that we are not good enough without X, Y, Z item.....and while I have overcome many of my "issues" in the past years this is one major area I need to tackle...
I don't really have a game plan....except I just want to be able to be comfortable in my own skin, own what I got (and what I haven't) and enjoy where I am....so yes that is my new goal.
I almost feel that this goal will get fulfilled as I live life a bit more yet I look forward to the day that dog hair, and coke cans aside when a friend stops by I let them in and don't worry that they will judge the lack of fancy serving ware or in style furniture. That instead I will just feel thankful for that friendship.
To realizing what really is important.
Lacy
And while rationally I know it is total garbage the Idaho girl in me just can't shake that Betty Crocker image as the ideal....
So imagine how awesome it was to have loved ones over where we could laugh, break bread and whom I realized I loved enough to not worry about not completely wiped down cabinets or clean windows...it was fun to just be able to enjoy the moment.
To stop for a second and feel loved & laughter.
It is a feeling I carried over to today even though I am cramping and feel completely gross (I blame the 3 different pies and copious amounts of champagne...). I so quickly get into that competitive mode with other people from anything to body images, window treatments, even if my garden is planted, and if I planted enough & everything in between....I blame society and it constantly telling us that we are not good enough without X, Y, Z item.....and while I have overcome many of my "issues" in the past years this is one major area I need to tackle...
I don't really have a game plan....except I just want to be able to be comfortable in my own skin, own what I got (and what I haven't) and enjoy where I am....so yes that is my new goal.
I almost feel that this goal will get fulfilled as I live life a bit more yet I look forward to the day that dog hair, and coke cans aside when a friend stops by I let them in and don't worry that they will judge the lack of fancy serving ware or in style furniture. That instead I will just feel thankful for that friendship.
To realizing what really is important.
Lacy
Bees.....
So we got our bees.
It was epic.
I had done all the research, read tons of books, watched youtube videos galore and even went to a class and yet none of that prepared us.
We received our Nuc from Living Scape yesterday late afternoon, here in Portland it, like everyday, was cloudy, raining and cold. We asked the guy if we could install in the rain and he said yes, let them fly around a bit and then they should be okay to put into your new hive.
I don't blame the guy at all. I actually don't know what went wrong or why....I have been looking around the interwebs all day for someone who has had a similar experience and haven't found one yet...maybe they are too embarrassed?!!?
Everyone on the web talks about how easy it was installing their Nuc, don't even need gloves or a suit... definitely don't need the smoker!
So imagine our surprise when we opened our box to this:
There literally was nothing to grab on to so we could transfer them! I "suggested" (ok bossed) Brent to just "Man" up and lift them up. He had been complaining that he was being stung but he was decked out in this:
I mean how can a bee sting you when you are wearing a whole body suit of thick canvas, gloves up to your armpits and he is even wearing a t-shirt and jeans underneath! He said he needed a break...even though he hadn't lifted one frame!
Now here is something they don't tell you...
Even though you might be done with the bees that does not mean they are done with you.....it takes a while to get them completely off of you and they are pretty sneaky things, hiding in cracks and folds and such.
So I got frustrated. Borrowed a veil and gloves from a friend and said, "lets do this!". This lasted for four frames....with Brent getting stung repetitively in his shoe..the little bastarts had figured out how to go under the gathering of his pant leg, then go under his jeans, into his socks and then finally into his shoe.
Here is something else they don't tell you...
When one figures out how to do this they all figure out how to do this...so Brent is already getting stung and tons more bees are now heading to his leg! I could see the finish line though with only one frame left and tell him we are almost done....
And then I realized that bees had gotten into my veil...
and yes I read the articles, books, watched the videos
All of which tell you to not freak out...
Well sorry but instinct prevailed and I freaked the shit out!
I ripped that thing off started running, threw the camera down and bolted.
If you know anything about bees you know to move slowly, calmly.....I forgot all that in about one second...
So as I am having my panic attack I get stung in the ear. Brent is now worried about me and getting stung as he walks towards me..
We calm down enough to again brush all the bees off and head back inside.
We take a 5 minute break, add WOOL socks to Brent's outfit..complete with his jeans now being tucked into those socks and we head back out.
It is 9pm now...
It is dark.
The bees are now calm...
Brent is able to lift the last frame with little to no problem, shove the top on and again brush the bees off and we are done.
DONE.
Did we inspect each frame for brood? honey? hell-to-the-no......we shoved that crap in there and left!
We went inside and started contemplating what we had done. We did research! We went to classes! We asked friends...
and yet none of it
NONE OF IT
had prepared us for this.
We thought about just setting the whole thing on fire
(PETA settle down...we aren't going to...today at least...)
But instead we counted B's stings (over 15) thanked the heavens that neither of us are allergic...we didn't even puff up and started laughing..
and drinking.
If you have not been to Pizza Fino do yourself a favor and go.
By the time we left (and I had 2 of their amazing pear inspired drinks) the memory of this experience was one of laughter and "well it can't get any worse" attitudes.
We don't blame the bees...we should of waited until nice weather, we now realize how wicked smart they are, and honestly from this point onwards we are going to always use the smoker.
We have a lot to learn. Books and such can only prepare you so much and so we are going to learn by experience and probably more classes.
So people of the world: If you got a Nuc and you got stung you are not alone!! Do not feel bad. The people of the internet of full of shit.
Lacy
It was epic.
I had done all the research, read tons of books, watched youtube videos galore and even went to a class and yet none of that prepared us.
We received our Nuc from Living Scape yesterday late afternoon, here in Portland it, like everyday, was cloudy, raining and cold. We asked the guy if we could install in the rain and he said yes, let them fly around a bit and then they should be okay to put into your new hive.
I don't blame the guy at all. I actually don't know what went wrong or why....I have been looking around the interwebs all day for someone who has had a similar experience and haven't found one yet...maybe they are too embarrassed?!!?
Everyone on the web talks about how easy it was installing their Nuc, don't even need gloves or a suit... definitely don't need the smoker!
So imagine our surprise when we opened our box to this:
Now here is something they don't tell you...
Even though you might be done with the bees that does not mean they are done with you.....it takes a while to get them completely off of you and they are pretty sneaky things, hiding in cracks and folds and such.
So I got frustrated. Borrowed a veil and gloves from a friend and said, "lets do this!". This lasted for four frames....with Brent getting stung repetitively in his shoe..the little bastarts had figured out how to go under the gathering of his pant leg, then go under his jeans, into his socks and then finally into his shoe.
Here is something else they don't tell you...
When one figures out how to do this they all figure out how to do this...so Brent is already getting stung and tons more bees are now heading to his leg! I could see the finish line though with only one frame left and tell him we are almost done....
And then I realized that bees had gotten into my veil...
and yes I read the articles, books, watched the videos
All of which tell you to not freak out...
Well sorry but instinct prevailed and I freaked the shit out!
I ripped that thing off started running, threw the camera down and bolted.
If you know anything about bees you know to move slowly, calmly.....I forgot all that in about one second...
So as I am having my panic attack I get stung in the ear. Brent is now worried about me and getting stung as he walks towards me..
We calm down enough to again brush all the bees off and head back inside.
We take a 5 minute break, add WOOL socks to Brent's outfit..complete with his jeans now being tucked into those socks and we head back out.
It is 9pm now...
It is dark.
The bees are now calm...
Brent is able to lift the last frame with little to no problem, shove the top on and again brush the bees off and we are done.
DONE.
Did we inspect each frame for brood? honey? hell-to-the-no......we shoved that crap in there and left!
We went inside and started contemplating what we had done. We did research! We went to classes! We asked friends...
and yet none of it
NONE OF IT
had prepared us for this.
We thought about just setting the whole thing on fire
(PETA settle down...we aren't going to...today at least...)
But instead we counted B's stings (over 15) thanked the heavens that neither of us are allergic...we didn't even puff up and started laughing..
and drinking.
By the time we left (and I had 2 of their amazing pear inspired drinks) the memory of this experience was one of laughter and "well it can't get any worse" attitudes.
We don't blame the bees...we should of waited until nice weather, we now realize how wicked smart they are, and honestly from this point onwards we are going to always use the smoker.
We have a lot to learn. Books and such can only prepare you so much and so we are going to learn by experience and probably more classes.
So people of the world: If you got a Nuc and you got stung you are not alone!! Do not feel bad. The people of the internet of full of shit.
Lacy
food.
The more I learn the more I want to just stop learning. I want to go back to that person eating lean cuisine and special K.....
I do not have kids but if/when I do I am gonna be one of those people who watches everything that goes in that little beans mouth. I am thankful my parents were slightly ahead of the curve with raw milk and meat from local farms but still was raised on candy, hamburger helper & convenience foods.
I sometimes wonder if all my efforts to eat food I don't have to worry about is worth it....it takes hours a week, it takes planning & canning (more time), it costs more $$.....
I watch something like this and yes it is all worth it. By doing this I am taking a stand and saying NO to government fucked up programs which support these horrible foods. I am saying NO to major corporations who are fucking over local farmers. I am saying NO to fucking up our world. I am saying NO to increased risks of cancer, increased insurance costs, a body full of toxic chemicals.
I am not perfect. I ate fake cheese today.....I am addicted to coffee creamer with some intense ingredients that are not easy to pronounce....BUT I am doing what I can. Slowly we are ridding our cabinets, our lives, from any products that support these horrible practices & in turn slowly kill us.
Now wishing the government would wake up.
I do not have kids but if/when I do I am gonna be one of those people who watches everything that goes in that little beans mouth. I am thankful my parents were slightly ahead of the curve with raw milk and meat from local farms but still was raised on candy, hamburger helper & convenience foods.
I sometimes wonder if all my efforts to eat food I don't have to worry about is worth it....it takes hours a week, it takes planning & canning (more time), it costs more $$.....
I watch something like this and yes it is all worth it. By doing this I am taking a stand and saying NO to government fucked up programs which support these horrible foods. I am saying NO to major corporations who are fucking over local farmers. I am saying NO to fucking up our world. I am saying NO to increased risks of cancer, increased insurance costs, a body full of toxic chemicals.
I am not perfect. I ate fake cheese today.....I am addicted to coffee creamer with some intense ingredients that are not easy to pronounce....BUT I am doing what I can. Slowly we are ridding our cabinets, our lives, from any products that support these horrible practices & in turn slowly kill us.
Now wishing the government would wake up.
Sneaky Sneaky......
Sometimes not having food money for the rest of the month is worth crazy surprises....
But I just HAD too....
It's gonna be life changing for a certain ridiculously dashing man in my life......
The worst is that I am gonna have to keep my mouth shut until his birthday....
Which is in September!!!!!
:::::::::::Crap:::::::::
I am gonna give you one hint:
Its for a 'dirty white boy' & 'it feels like the first time' I have attempted to keep a secret...
Fingers crossed I can 'faithfully' keep my trap shut....'don't stop believing' that I actually bought something with $30.00 fees associated with it......
Oy.
Lacy
But I just HAD too....
It's gonna be life changing for a certain ridiculously dashing man in my life......
The worst is that I am gonna have to keep my mouth shut until his birthday....
Which is in September!!!!!
:::::::::::Crap:::::::::
I am gonna give you one hint:
Its for a 'dirty white boy' & 'it feels like the first time' I have attempted to keep a secret...
Fingers crossed I can 'faithfully' keep my trap shut....'don't stop believing' that I actually bought something with $30.00 fees associated with it......
Oy.
Lacy
Thankful Tuesdays
1. Thank you sun for shining a bit today!
2. Thank you pups for cuddling and snoring adorably every time I sit on the couch.
3. Thank you box of organic veggies & fruit that was delivered today that I kind of forgot about...(it was like a lovely surprise gift!)
4. Thank you B.Jones for being such a stud muffin who says I can cook better than any of the chefs on Kitchen Nightmare and reminds me daily how much closer we are to boating season...
5. Thank you Teen Mom 2 for helping me chill for 2 hours without even noticing.
6. Thank you Grendel's Coffee House for such a lovely honey & cinnamon latte.
7. Thank you Mastercard for the opportunity for me to buy a plane ticket to reconnect with a friend in warm LA.
2. Thank you pups for cuddling and snoring adorably every time I sit on the couch.
4. Thank you B.Jones for being such a stud muffin who says I can cook better than any of the chefs on Kitchen Nightmare and reminds me daily how much closer we are to boating season...
5. Thank you Teen Mom 2 for helping me chill for 2 hours without even noticing.
6. Thank you Grendel's Coffee House for such a lovely honey & cinnamon latte.
7. Thank you Mastercard for the opportunity for me to buy a plane ticket to reconnect with a friend in warm LA.
